How much is too much?

I started this blog yesterday, I hope that I will finish it today. I've changed everything about it, but I will finish it today. The title too belongs to yesterday, didn't want to change it, felt wrong. Today seems to be a day of finishing things. Yesterday was not a great day - if there was something stupid to say, I said it; if there was something stupid to do, it was surely me who did it; if there was someone to be unfaithful to God - here am I Lord send me? It was surely not the Lord who led me to my unfaithfulness to Him, but I know He is going to 'let that be a lesson to me.' He's not wasteful :)

I was in the thick of feeling physically exhausted - I have NEVER felt like this, could not sit, could not stand, it was terrible. You know when people are talking to you and you know that you should respond to them and yet, you would like to smack them for asking you a question in the first place? That was me yesterday morning at around 9 am. (Crazier than craziness is that by 10 am, I was at the Holidome singing away, front and slightly right of centre... crazy huh?) I was physically weak, and utterly exhausted; man, as I write this a song that I sang in Singing Company comes back;

"When we have exhausted our store of endurance,
When our strength is gone and the day is half done
When we reach the end of our hoarded resources
Our Fathers full giving has only begun."

I hope I remember that correctly, you get the message though, yeah? I dropped the ball and gave up, and just like God, He saved my chubby wee butt! Awesome God!

"Whatever our faith says God is, He will be" Burn... This was the last line in my devotional this a.m. - that isn't even the first time that I have read that; it's so true with so many of our relationships, whatever we know of ourselves, we know of other people. If we are slanderous, then others will be slanderous; if we are short-tempered, others will be short-tempered; if we are graceless, then others will be graceless; if we are unforgiving, then others will unforgiving. They are the eyes with which we view life, because that is what we have experienced. God is like no one else we have known, He doesn't fit the cookie cutter that we have for the remainder of the population. And oh how good that news is! Cause seriously, I can't have my God as weak as I am, as unforgiving as I am, as manipulative as I am, as selfish as I am, as weak as I am; I wouldn't like Him.

Maybe I will have learned my lesson - He split the seas, brought the dead back to life; when I'm feeling crappy, He will ride it through with me, that's what His track record tells me.