Pretty much that has been what I have been getting told ALL my life, Mhairi stop laughing so loud, Mhairi stop talking so loud, Mhairi stop drinking your juice so loud... well, some people are just loud! I have a group of friends who would scare the pants off of any introvert; not cause we are mean, or spiteful, but because, serious, Allison, Carole, Amber and I laughing is enough to wake the living dead! ( I know the dead aren't living, but we don't kill dead fish either ;) )
This week I say it to God! Yeah, go figure that one! We spend our lives asking to hear Him, and when He does talk/express His feelings towards us, we shut Him up. Thankfully, He tries and tries, you know when He won't give up on us PRAISE GOD, and He just keeps on going making Himself louder and louder? (I always imagine this as the L'Oreal advert for some reason, it's not even a good illustration, but I imagine it as us flicking our hair at Him and saying, "'Cause I'm worth it too!" I wish I had a really good way of explaining it, or having it make sense, or having any real link to that advert, butI just don't have the ability, I just think like this!)
Anyway, I'm still reading the Yancy book; I'm a slow reader, (even slower now as I try to read it whilst I'm at the gym!) and so this grace thing is really starting to get to me - I think I've learned my lot for the time being and then all of a sudden, it comes again, and I am forced to learn more. The suckiest part is when God uses people you love, or people you don't know so well, or people you want to grow a relationship with to teach you this lesson. (I don't know if He uses them, I don't exactly know how this works; I know they teach me, and I know God wants me to learn grace - I just know I need to put this disclaimer in here - I'M NOT THAT SMART! ;) ) For anyone out there who is looking at this and thinking, oh, yeah, grace, I know a bit about that, I ask you this, "Did it hurt?" Cause I am discovering that it hurts like hang!!! For me anyway, maybe I'm just a tough case, and I need broken more severely than most, but I can tell you, I have never learned a more painful lesson.
Can I tell you one thing I don't like about being a Christian, who also suffers the vice of being a perfectionist? I will never be perfect - wow that grates me like my teeth against sandpaper! Can I also tell you how everytime I think that it makes me want to cry? S. I. U. Wee Mhairi!
So my most recent lesson in grace - my mobile got stolen! Rar!!! I was at the corps, and I STUPIDLY left my phone on the table and the kids were in and out. Anyway, to cut a long story short, it was "borrowed." What annoyed me the most was that I lost all my ring tones, (I had Jamie Cullum, Coldplay, some Franz Ferdinand on it, rar!) and all my numbers. So frustrating... What did impress me about myself is I quickly, (not perfect remember,) got over the "Bring them to justice!" mince that I normally go through. It was community kids, you can't risk losing them.
You know, God is good. Within an hour I had a new phone - those people at Verizon aren't half bad! Yeah for Verizon!
Anyway, I've a couple of other points to cover in this blog before I head off to bed. Here they be:
1. My sister just started a blog, she's should have called it snotter! You can see hers from my links, she's Lynsey-kin-Rodgers.
2. Tomorrow, thanks to my wonderful bosses, I'm off to Atlanta BABY, for the Roots conference, so excited!!!
3. I have a group of friends in Mexico finishing up a missions trip this week, so, if you would pray for them, I'd appreciate. They are, (in no preferential order..)
Caryn Allison Michele Edgar Zachary Mark Matthew Lindsay
Eric
I think that's them all, they are coming home Friday, so please just remember them - they are some good ones so they are!
Alright, peace y'all
D’arenberg Hermit Crab McLaren Vale
8 years ago
